Here I sit
Idling car
Rolling tears
Thoughts racing
How can life be passing
So quickly
She’s all grown up
17 is fading into 18
faster than
my heart can handle
How do I let her go
She drives away
Oh my heart
goes with her
Oh my mind
Memories
Fear
Faith
Hope
Pain
Racing
Prayer is the only remedy.
Oh God
How do I let her go
How will I survive
The gap in the waiting
Til she comes home again
Oh my heart rejoices
The sound of her car
Returning
Dinners together have faded
Friends take our place
A life waiting to be held
In front of her
A life completed
She leaves behind
Oh my table is incomplete
When even just one is missing.
The days are long.
The years are short.
Snotty noses
Poopy diapers
Cute voices
50 kisses
Fade into independence.
“I don’t need you
Look at me
Be proud of me
Affirm me
Do you see that
you’ve done well mama
Tell me so
How I long to hear your cheers
I don’t need you
To fix my problems
I got this
I’m not a baby anymore
Don’t kiss me in front of everyone
Please don’t take my pic.”
From cool to drool
I quickly became
In their eyes.
Moms don’t let your hearts become offended in these times
Because
They’ll come back around.
“I need my mama
Late night talks are never late enough
Help me.
Hold me
I’m afraid
Do you believe in me mama?
Can I do this?
What if I’m not enough?
Why doesn’t anyone like me?
I need your hugs more than ever even though I look hard-hearted at times.”
Mamas. Keep your heart open, renewed, and soft. Don’t let the harsh words, cutting words strike you deep. They need you when they look like they need you the least.
Oh my heart in this season is wrestling with so much.
Prayer and trust in the Lord is the only remedy.
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. (Psalm 46:1 NIV)
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