I am excited to announce that I have completed my first book!
I once was stuck – very stuck! I was stuck in depression, sin, shame, and hopelessness. this is just the beginning of the story, but God had bigger plans to pull me through and show me a love and a hope I couldn’t even imagine!
I think this book will encourage you to move out of the ruts and wounds of life and into a life fully exploding in the things God has called you to!
Here is a short exert:
If we are going to defeat the negative thoughts, fears, and distractions in our lives and take our hope back, we must start by knowing our true identity in Christ.
When I was three years old, my alcoholic dad abandoned our family. Even at that young age, I thought: What is wrong with me that my daddy wouldn’t love me? I just couldn’t understand. I didn’t realize it at the time, but this event rooted a lie in me. I believed that lie: I am unlovable. I am not wanted.
My dad’s motives were probably not to make his daughter feel unloved or unwanted, but it’s what I perceived.
Anything that you believe to be true impacts your life as if it were true, even if it’s a lie!
At ten years old my life took a turn for the worse. For four years I was molested in my own home. I cannot even convey the kind of damage this abuse has on a child. If you have been hurt like I was, then you know how devastating it is to have your body used for something it wasn’t designed for.
I felt shame.
I was confused.
I wasn’t safe in my home.
The abuse didn’t stop there. Abusers need to have control over you. They will demean you to keep you quiet. Therefore, the mental abuse began. I was called names like “stupid,” “idiot,” “brat,” and many others that I have tried to forget. Even though I am a smart and capable person, I believed I was stupid for many years – into my late 20’s.
I worked hard to achieve things because I was trying to prove to everyone (including myself) that I wasn’t stupid! I graduated college with a degree in accounting, became a Certified Public Accountant and was hired by one of the top accounting firms in the nation. I eventually became a manager in my firm – a position that requires skillful management of a heavy workload and many challenges.
But because the lie that I was stupid was so imbedded in my heart, every time I made a mistake at work or the client was dissatisfied, I would crumble. I would go from feeling like I was at the top of my game to feeling lower than the dirt under everyone’s feet. I lived on a roller coaster of people’s opinions and perspectives. Albert Einstein said, “Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.”
To feel loved, I put all my energy into finding someone to love me. Oh the grief in my life over so many failed relationships. I searched long and hard to find someone that thought I was worthy of love and would not reject me. What I didn’t know is that I would never fill that huge gap in my heart through another person! All my efforts actually prevented my escape to freedom.
Lies we believe hold us back from God’s awesome plan for our lives.
BUT GOD! Find out how the story ends HERE: